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Life and Happiness.

so its not about fame and fortune,its about believing and believing in yourself and understanding that this life its life,its a liberty and the pursuit of happiness.

and happiness is not about getting what you want all the time,its about loving what you have.

dedication

you'll never find those perfect words,something more than just .goodbye.its hard to remember the good time when there's just so much heartache,but they deserve more than that.they deserve more than just one single moment of sadness.

so just remember that when there's enough love in our hearts,it burns like a fucking supernova and theres sure as hells enough love in our heart to spark that famous smile.

we all lose someone at some point in our lives,but don't ever let go of that smile.

hold it on forever,because thats our final dedication.

-AAL

top music list for the week.

1 anthony greem-dear child(i've been trying to reach you)

2 milburn-the genius and the tramp.

3 arctic monkeys-certain romance

4 andy tubman-quiet inside

4 circa survive-every way

5 defeater-but breathing

6 i see stars-over it

7 ivy-undertow

8 jack johnson-same girl

9 the gloria records-ambulance

10 travis-turn

:)

blue sky noise

wadduup son.

well,lets get started now since i've got a lot of things to spill today,ahahah.

alright maybe this topic is normal to everyone,its about human.

yea its about some people don't realise their mistake and keep blaming others eventhough they know they were wrong actually,lets put it straight,its about unmatured people,i don't want to put some name here but for some people who know me,i think they know.

heheh.

yea its true there is something good too in unmatured people,but come on sonny jim,for how long u want to act that way?hacking my profile,text like u were goddes,acting like u never done wrong.seriously?

all the way from the start i keep giving u a chance,but then i don't even think u care or appreciate all that,u keep doing and doing and doing the same mistake even u urself already know it is not good to do that.

i admit sometime i did some mistake too,but if i can improve myself,why not u son?

hahaha.

last night i awake at 2am which is everyday i will awake at two because of nightmare i always have every single night.damn.

then i go to kitchen to pick up some light coke,it was a chilling night last night,the air is good,brian eno started playing his piano and the lights kinda stone.

it was nice,really.

then all this thing come to my mind,and i still don't get it,and trying to figure how to get rid of all this thing.well everyone know this problem is hard to solve it,it have to be that own person to make that change.

haish i know everyone is not the same person but come on mate,its about good and bad things,ur parents already reminds u that everyday and teach u too when u were kids and why do u have to keep doing it son?

if u were 15,16 or 17 i still can accept,but u're more than that.u should know what is good and what is bad,right?

i wish one day when i see or meet those people,they already change.

i also unmatured,bad or some say that i was another devil in this world back then but i manage to change everything,i manage to get back to the road.

to compare ur things and mine,mine more worst but i make an effort to change,now i don't need drugs to start my day,i only need real food and nice air in the morning.

thats all for now holmes.

peace out son.

:D

tak mandi

tuesday,2.42 pm,8 feb.

ay datang lagi hahahhahaha but this time more interesting,ada mars sekali,feewwwiiiitttt.

kirim salam dekat mars yea ay :P

hahahahhaha

well that outing actually supposed to be a happy outing but...........well she know what happen,i was like want to be incredible hulk dah that time.marah betul ni.haaaaaaaaa watch out ay kena la nanti :P

hahahahahhaha dah kena pun :P

yea marah2 pun happy jugak la sebab ay come to kl again and bring mars lagi even we didn't talk a lot like really a lot,kesian i kan ay :P

hahahahah,there is two fav part in that outing which i like,the first one is at kfc which make ay kinda penat because i make easy choosing to complicated and end up with snake plate jugak,hahahahhaha apela ay ni :P

and the second part is when we are going to the second place and i get punch ay arms and push her to the road hahahahahha best gila :D

we did take picture and i also got chance to take a picture with mars(hehehehehe :P)

and still i didn't get my cookies,GRRRRRRRRRRR!

jaga2 ay.lama dah tunggu,haaaaaaaaaaaa

and yea eventhough i'm mad to her that day but still i'm having good time with her and mars jugak :P

yea at least i can like release something that bothering me this few weeks.well u know what is it right ay?

thanks for coming again ay,hope can see u again at new zealand later :P

hihihih

thats it for now,take care geeks :D

have a nice day and god bless u.

robin sparkles

7.40am

woke up from sleep....dah kena jahat,terus merajuk tak berlagu and this is a.y fault,haaaaaaaaa so i request one song from a.y which is from my fav movie,how i met yout mother.

but then she didn't do anything at first and sleep,after she woke up,she sing but not in the right way and at the same time her friend come over her house,well then she just like ............ and go to her friend and left me and i was like ........ so i choose not to reply her text and pick up her phone call for awhile.sedih betul ni.

then suddenly out of nowhere i reply her text hahahaha,,u know why right a.y.

and now she trying to give me the song but then she can't online so bertambah and tambah and tambah la lagi ni,haaaaaa fahamkan a.y?

how how how how?

well since u can't send i add 999 more song,so prepare eh i make a list tonight :P

hihihihi

alaaaaaaa tiba2 lak a.y boleh online,tak dapat la 999 song,huuuuuuuuuuuu

hahahahah

takpe2 nasib a.y baik je ni:P

esok tambah lagi an an an an a.y?:)

well then point i make this is because i feel a bit better after the break up with n...well is tough for me at first but my friends do help me to get through it terutama si a.y ni hihihihiih :D

thanks a.y and others who help me in this situation.

won't forget for all the things u guys done to help me,really thankful because have a friends like u guys.

:) :* :D

peace out for now.

bye2 :D

m.h

better days

this is the fun part.

so i hope u'll find it fun :D

this one is for a.y :D

believe it or not i met a.y already,it was really suprising me actually because i never thought i will met her :D

but i met a.y at last :D

it was fun and i had a great time i mean really.

when the first time i met her,it was really awkward as everyone who know me well i'm quiet a shy person and a.y pulak jalan kemain laju at first,hahahahah mcm nak pi lumba lari but at the end lepas jumpa i know why she do that :D

kitorang jalan2 at the boring klcc and find a place to eat well guess what semua full,kenapa la diorang lapa time kitorang nak pi makan,potong betul dah la lapar mcm tak makan sebulan and lastly finally dapat jugak makan at burger king and even a.y tak suka but then dipaksa makan jugak :D
hahahahah.and paling best everytime dia ajak pegi bb i reject hahaha sorry kawan a.y for that :D

after we hit for lunch i want to buy new headgear for jog so we go to sony and at first tak sempat nak pilih sebab ada this stupid family block the way hahahah.

second time pergi baru dapat and balik2 terus jog memang best :D

then a.y nak balik so i teman dia til kl sentral sebab dia balik with kawan dia.

mase nak masuk train a.y kemain laju lagi nak masuk sampai tarik tangan i mcm nak pi kawin lari hahahahahha

so i guess u can guess why a.y jalan laju gila at first tu :P

then dah masuk train dia mcm nak slip up and guess what dia hold my hand again :D

hahahahahah but i buat tak tau je :P

sampai je kat kl sentral kitorang pun pergi la jumpa kawan dia and nampak dari jauh je,haish baru nak jumpa dekat2 an :D

and tiba2 je nak balik dah si a.y tu cepat benor and paling sedih dia lupa nak bagi something,hmmmmmmmmm

but then i was happy jugak sebab dapat jumpa a.y lepas having some hard time.

thank u a.y sebab cheering me,be there for me when i need someone and make me happy even tengah marah now :)
hihihihihi

so thats all for now,nanti adala sambungannya :D

take care folks.

so lets raise the glass to better days.

saints all the way.

bye2:D

victory in numbers

waddddup! lama tak on mcm dah lupa lak ada bende alah ni.

yea theres a lot of things to spill it out here sebab dah lama tak on right.

a lot of good and bad happen all this while.

lets start with good things first....yea all this while i feel happy since everything going great and smooth..

yea haritu ada pergi holiday kat perhentian with ajib and im..we had a good time,driving for like long hours,mak aih,letih makkk oi but then when we reach there,the tired hilang mcm tu je best gila when see the beach,clear water huish memang tak nak balik la but the surrounding is full with bitch and booze.tido pun kemain susah diorang sibuk dok berpesta kat luar bising.

but the interesting part is the first night at perhentian i ask for n.m to be with me and she accept it :)

what do u think i should feel that time yea?

mestila open bottle kot hahahahahhaha no lah,just keep it inside and smile for the world.

hehehehe

actually banyak sebenarnya pergi holiday tapi letih nak menaip,but then i just tell where i have go je la eh?

gopeng perak for white water rafting,janda baik for bbq,pergi church dengan im hahahahahha and banyak lagi la.

honestly i really feel the happiness in life.

before this the happy not really happy sangat because a person said to me,jangan happy sangat sebab it leads to something we can't accept.

so hati2 la nak happy pun.hahahha

and with ayee,amira and some others,we're getting tight back and we're happy after awhile lost contact because of something but ada jugak la kan try to make my friendship with ayee crack.

and that person memang crack pun.(strangers)

oraite now,we go for bad things.

banyak gaduh jugak la with n.m an haish tapi nasib baik la we get through all that.

yea fighting is not an option right?

so we just get through all that and forget about the past even some of it still can't even forget.

and out of nowhere,she just said something that i've been waiting for her to say and she say it last night.

now we both good,happy,great and farah lyana(go fuck urself holmes) a bit straight forward and its better i guess.

and bad things related with friends pulak.

haritu adala kan orang tu nak try crack kan friendship orang,sampai kitorang lost contact la jugak.ape la,banyak lagi bende berfaedah boleh buat,tapi tu la nak jugak buat benda tak elok.

come on kiddy shit,grow up.

ok thats all la dulu eh about the story curry tu.

nanti ada masa i add up.

and last for not least,i'm fit for study back sebab dah sihat balik skit,and nanti nak apply adp which means another 2 or 3 years je lagi ada kat kl and insyaallah dapat la an.

:D

oraite for now,catch u later son.

light that shit,smoke that shit,pass that shit.

open ur eyes and jangan duk dalam gua je.

hihihi

chow mate

getting slow.

the lights out.

the music starting to play.

the sound of my breath and the sound of the cold wind follow the rhythm.

one of the hardest night i've been through.

been thinking about everything,yea i know i shouldn't but it keeps coming.i don't know what i can do more now,all i can is pray that it will flown away.

life reminds me that i have to fly and fly above,when i fly solo,i fly so high but i need a wings to make me fly.

with the real disease that i have now i gotta be strong,i gotta stay focus to stay alive.

i'm kinda miss my lost M.

thats all for now.

set to sea.

big sky eh aite.

remember..

guys,still remember about my disease that i got told last week?

hahahah yea got some news about it.

well i actually don't know how to say but yea even that disease is gone but i always got some news about it.

huhuhuhu:D

well that disease is going to fall down.

that person slip up every single day even that person always trying prove to everybody that everythings fine and stuff.

haih,what la this person.

grow up and learn from your mistake.

geez:D

hahahahaha

thats all folks

new word:D

have some conversation with a.y last night...

a.y is getting funnier:D hahahahahah

maaf yar a.y:P .

but yea last night its kinda a bit different,a.y teach me some terengganu slang.hahahahahah

it makes me laugh non stop:))

and yea a.y always say a line which i can't say it here and after that line,feewwwiittt word came out.:D even a.y said that a.y didn't mean it which is a.y said TAK SENGAJA but i know a.y want to said that.

hahahahahaha:))

what the hell la aku mengarut ni:D

thats all for now a.y.

don't forget 8KM PER DAY alright,hahahahah.

stay healthy aite:D

bye2

errr errrr..

a.y..

first time we talk is like we know each other for like really really long time,we had so much fun,we laugh,we talk a lot,we share things.

this person is really kind and funny..last night this person called me,and says that this person already record everythings magic song that i ask this person to do,and i was exited but this person says that i have to on my ym messenger because the file is too large to send through phone...it was okay to me.

and to make it fair,i play some drum for this person...and then this person comment that i'm really good at drum,well i know i am,i'm just like another moe carlson.hahahahah:D

well,to this person,i hope that u never regret knowing me,hahahahahah(i hope u know what i mean kan kan:P).

hahahaha:D

btw,i'm happy to know u,i had so much fun when talk with u,u just like another person that i told u(remember?).

i hope u appreciate it..

well actually i'm kinda sad about the text u send me after we talk.

hmmm but its okay.

have a nice day a.y

jog alright,twice a day and 4km a day.

stay healthy.

feeewiiiittt:D

A.Y:)

thats the short for someone i know.

that person live a mile mile mile away from me but we manage to contact through internet like fb and ym.

this person is kinda special to me,i said that because this person just know how to make it right if something going on.

i hope when i went to this person place,this person is there because this person got told me that this person want to go somewhere which is far far away from malaysia:(

it feels never bored when i talk with this person,don't know why but i always smile when i talk to this person.

and the best part is,this did something that nobody have ever done to me before and it is something that i couldn't forget.

i thank to god because letting me know this person.even just a couple of months but i do really appreciate this thing so much,really.

i hope this person knows how much this person meant for me.

and yea this person gone somewhere now,damn it:(

hahahahah.

chill winston.

btw don't forget to practice for tonight things okay:P

have a nice day A.Y:D

god bless you:)

new tops for this week.

1.angels and airwaves *love it:)

2.john mayer *chill:)

3.protest the hero *moe carlson:D

4.four year strong *team up team up.

5.set your goals *fast fast:D

6.his statue falls *sesat kejap dengar lagu2 mcm ni:P

7.jack johnson *:)

8.jonny craig *oh my brother:D

9.isles & glaciers *best combination:)

10.who else?gallows la *all the time:D

the disease:D

its gone mate,its finally gone:D

thank god so much for helping in this kind of cases.wow,it feels good mate.really.

and to that person,i forgive all the lies,the made up thing and the cover up you've made.i actually already knew the real story of you but i keep it silent til you confess it to me,but you never did.

but funny you make the first move first,and i thank you for that:D *hehehehehe.

kinda feel wanna do the river dancing now,wakakakakakkakakak:D

well i don't know how to describe my feeling right now,but this will do.

'You're holding your thoughts back to
keep you from speaking the words
you know you can't mean in the end
if this is what you want
then this is what you'll get
I watched you fall to your knees as the waves
came tumbling down crashing upon
this wreckless abandoned
hope that you painted
inside of this life you live'

so eat it.

and i hope you learn a lot from what had happen.

and i wish the best in yourlife.

and i actually never thought you will blinded me with your made up stories.

more stories will be post as soon as my baby lights my fire:D

hahahahahahah:D

a night with full of smile and laugh:)

theres one lovely night which i still can't even forget and still make me smile til now.

the night was awesome after the lost of liverpool:D *sorry ya fidi,hahahahahah.

its start with small amount of laugh and it keep continue like never stop,i've thank to this person a lot,nobody,i mean nobody have ever make me so happy like in that night,well of course its a girl and that is the person who i actually waiting for:) .

and i hope that person feel the same way like i do:D

so to that person,keep on doing like that eh,i love it:)

epic holiday and more on me:D

everybody complain about love story and life they having right now but do they know what is life really mean is?*sigh.

i'm not saying that my life is easy and i'm not saying that i'm perfect,just that,i think everything in life is easy,just that people make it hard and then they start complain about everything that mess up in their love story or life.

people should realize that they just have to follow the rules that they agree between they and god before they were born.come on people,open ur eyes and mind and see what you have done now and start making changes.

look ok,nobody's right and nobody's wrong,life is just a game that u have to get control and life its just one epic holiday.try to enjoy every single moment that you have:)

enough about that,more on me now:D hahahahahahahha

these few weeks i've been messing with something that i shouldn't mess with,some people know and some people don't.this thing is like a disease for me now,it keep coming every single minute.damn.hahahahah.

and now i have to cure it before it get more worse by abandon it like ship captain abandon his ship if the ship can't he control anymore.*ayat nak gallows je,hihihihi.

And yea,not to forget,there is one person who i really wanted to be with contact with me back after she's gone kemana tah.*ish ish and it makes me happy even i know i can't be with her which is i can't be her someone la.damn it:(

thats all i guess for now,so stay alert for more stories from me,i'm farid from channel flyhighmate,bye2 for now and have a great day,wahahahahahahakakakakkakakakakakahahahahahahah*crack abis dah nie.how:D

wahhh

eherm eherm*come on baby light my blood.

hehehe

everythings going as i plan now,what can i say,everythings getting better and better.

someone ask me,hows ur valentine days?

then i reply 'what kind of question is that son,i never celebrate that kind of thing since the day i was born,what a fag,hahahahhahaha'

to all the people who has spend their time with me during the holiday,i would like to say thanks mate,it means a lot to me,really love u guys.

thats all???

yea,out of idea.

heheheheh

see u again :D

jack.b

it tooks a lot of time to realize how easy things should be in the first place.

but actually it depends how we manage it.

remember the time we try to save something important but at the end the things that we save doesn't like us?

do you remember?

i only save things i see only now.

i only love things that have in my mind now.

life is easy but why people make it harder?

past

Looking back all these years,

How i suffered all the pain & tears,

I got a burning desire,

To make a change like i never had,

I feel it's getting out of control,

If i can live in peace then i surely will,

No i don't wanna be a denial,

Too much regrets i can no longer tell,

Has turned my life into such a living hell,

Looking back all those times,

To all my sins & to all my crimes,

Nothing will ever be justified,

Being young & blind won't give me the right,

To all my loyalty's are unquestionable,

I've dedicated all my life & soul,

But when it all went wrong & the odds were down,

No one dared to be around,

Weren't there to catch me when i fell,

So why should I care?,

to whatever they'll say?,

They've never cared anyway,

I will do it my way,

I'll do it now & again & again.